crappy night

I had a really crappy night. the fireworks had a lot of debris and it made it hard for me to breathe so i was coughing and i had a bad headache so i got a double shot iced coffee which helped alot. But what was crappy was after the show and walking to the car i started collapsing and getting dizzy and woozy in the head. It sucked alot. Now i'm feeling better. rested watched some tv and put ice on my head but i'm still nautious and i still feel lots of pressure up my spine and into my head. ugh! i missed my apt on thursday so i had to reschedule to next thursdayl.

doctors appointment

So tomorrow is my doctors appointment after i got my 2 MRI's today. I've been lethargic and depressed but realizing my depression is due to my lethargy. its a vicious cycle. I do not claim I don't have depression but I don't want to just give up on figuring out what my triggers are.

anyways i got to look at my mri's and i don't see any srynx's in my spine but I'm not a doctor or mri tech.

so its official

(note this is not an mri of MY brain) diagnosed today. i have chiari's. ugh! i was hoping it was something i could fix :-( i have chiari malformation. i'm seeing a doctor in beverly hills recomended by a friend. i'm getting some more mri's done in two weeks because he will be out of town.

chiari question (undiagnosed)

i noticed when i sit my hip bones put pressure into my spine putting pressure into my head causing horrible pain and then a migraine. this also happens when i walk and my heels put pressure into my head! is this chiari symptom?

im waiting on insurance to see a doctor.

health update

So I want to update everyone on my health. Its been a tough ride!

I'm feeling alot better now. My lab work shows no signs of any infection.

I'm starting a part time job next week at an afterschool program. I don't know yet which school it will be.

I'm starting school again for summer. I'm changing my major to psychology although I absolutely loved Communication Disorders! But that major was like taking a midterm every week in every class. There was no break. And it's too hard on my body. Psychology is a big major at CSUN so I can choose which teachers and what times I want classes. I will be graduating hopefully next spring!

I started acupuncture which has been helping my pain and sleep.

I hope to get health insurance soon so that I can see a few more doctors. My back is really messed up, I noticed I feel much better after eating salty foods, and i still get those pressure headaches and migraines.

I have chronic fatigue syndrome now because of the infection but I'm able to manage it fine, though I can't do any aerobic exercise.

I've had to work through all my feelings in regards to becomming sick which I hope to continue doing, because it changes your life dramatically.

And I hope that people will call me and hang out with me soon, cuz i miss everyone!

the last two weeks

i went to the doc and he told me to take double my meds. as a result i've had an overall increase in symptoms. i had some marital problems that did get resolved but i hurt my neck in the process. so i started going to the chiropractor at my school which is really cheap. hes done this combo therapy on my neck and slowly getting my neck and back to a place that he can start doing other stuff. its been helpful. but the last few days have been pretty bad. mentally i couldnt take the double meds i was getting confused and couldnt think straight and i still cant but it was so bad. and felt weak and ill and i still do. my hands and feet hurt alot. and this other thing i'm not sure is related whatsoever but my nipples hurt. i decided to drop any dance class and just take the 3 communication disorder classes. i wont be able to handle it at all. maybe i need to move on. its sad. the reason is i was enrolled in a 3 unit intermediate ballet class that i had last semester which i really like the teacher and she would most likely be lenient on me and stuff but i'm afraid i wont be able to catch up at all and it would be too much too fast. if only she had an easier class. but the other dance teacher seems kinda tough. any absence or late or non dress counts. and they are each 1 unit so i would have to take 3 and thats too much. with papers and stuff not worth it.

i really want a maid to come like once a month. i think it would help me a great deal. my husband and i are going to get a car for me. maybe a 98-99 jaguar xj6 or something similar. if we take good care of it in about 20 years it would be a classic. which is always good. we just have to be committed to the repairs. but yeah i need a car to go to school even if its a block away. i'm just too sick. also the doc approved me for a temporary handicapped parking thing, now if i can only find the paperwork he sent me...aye aye aye lyme brain!!!!

MRI

i'm not much better than last year honestly. my anxiety and stress levels are still high despite there being a bittersweet thing to it.

i called my insurance company today to see about the MRI i was supposed to get and found out that there is no preapproval needed. stupid bitch who swore to me that it was needed and it would take MONTHS to get! anyways i'm going to demand stuff now from that office.

i'm bruising alot now. i have about 8 bruises alone on my thighs and now a lump in my left arm that looks like a bruise. i'm having those hypoglycemic feelings again. i'm tired my face feels wiped out like usual and pouring water over it helps for about 30 minutes.

a few times last night my arms would fall asleep but not all the way. quite annoying!

inflamation switching words and stress (generally i'm feeling better)

i'm generally feeing better. i'm using this stuff called BioFreez that my chiropractor gave me samples of for inflamation and I'm taking the Primrose Oil 2x a day.

my anxiety is slightly returning but i think its due to excess energy. i'm switching my words around here and there like yesterday i said bathroom instead of something else completely different.

my stress tolerance level is 0 and my couzin really stressed me yesterday. i feel bad because i want to be there for people who need people but i can't like my ability is not there anymore.

also i decided despite being worried i'm on the wrong treatment plan I will stick with my antibiotics and my doctor in the meantime. when he takes me off the meds a few days will go by and i will relapse. then he will probably try another med when i will suggesst Levaniquin or something like that...

"bad days"

finally got my period! and my gyn apointment is on tuesday. i have inflamation and that flushed feeling in my face, migraines and fatigue. not horrible but i think these are my "bad days" (hopefully!)

food allergy? and no period!

so i'm pretty sure i might have a food allergy. at first i was thinking not but today i got that flushed feeling in my face after eating at the bbq. i ate alot of new things than usual. i felt like my face was swelling and stuff but it wasnt and i was tired. and also the only thing that helped was cool rag on my face and i slept for like 3 - 4 hours in the air conditioned apartment. so i'm going back to the allergist to take the test.

another thing, i still dont have my period. i've been depressed today (probably from being tired) moody and i gained weight so i thought maybe the pregnancy tests were too early so i took another one and it was negative. i mean i would rather i be pregnant than it be something else cuz that would mean i was healthy in that area. it pisses me off that the doctor who took all those tests wont call me back and the staff in his office are incompetent. i think i might just go in and request copies of the records and take the tests to another gynocologist.

wow today was great. i slept in though which is good. i was able to walk ALOT today and even do a few turns (cuz i like to dance in random places like the bus stop :-)

i'm tired tonight and i think i'm gonna be able to sleep well. i feel like i did before when i worked and i was having a hard time because i was working and going to school and not feeling well at the same time. so thats good. its much improvement.

i think that god might be healing me.

i get this feeling when i take a shower like the blood is pooling in my feet and hands and they hurt alot and feel like i need to shake them and massage them and lift them up instead of standing on them (or in my hands case keeping them down).

another thing i've been still spotting those red dots in random places. my right shoulder has a bigger one (still very small but i was able to take a picture of it before my camera died on me).

along with the feet pain i feel i see like spider veins all in my feet and calves. at first it was just in my right foot and now its in my left foot. so i'm going to bring that up to the doc next friday when i go.

i spent a long time in Michaels' today looking for scrapbooking stuff for my wedding album. i found some cool paper. i got some good ideas. i'm going to take it like one page at a time and i have an idea of what i'm gonna do with the whole thing as well.

i havent done any knitting lately though. but i will in time. i think that scrapbooking is a little funner and slightly more challenging and if i have the energy for it i like to do that instead.

TAKE THE SUMMER OFF!!! is my motto

AT LEAST i'm happy

I cant sleep tonight because of all the things going through my head

anticipation of scrapbooking
maybing talking with my mom again
wanting to dance
wanting to work
wanting to be something more
the apointment tomorrow about my dog with the housing office...eek
the fact that i will probably miss the apointment because if i wake up still tired the rest of the day is shot for me.

i have to tell myself to at least take the summer OFF!!!!!!!!! doing NOTHING!!! i can't take that chance of pushing myself and then i just end up in the roller coaster again. But i dream of what i could do with the money.....basically all related to my health and enjoyment (cuz if i can enjoy somethings then that will improve my health).

Today i made an apointment with the allergist (again) but this time i asked for more than just the regular allergy test. I asked if they tested for food allergies and molds and stuff and that I wanted those as well. So i'm defintely having more confidence.

My tack board is now filled. I dont know if i can fill it any more than it is. The thing is I will notice things much better if they are up there rather than in a pile somewhere. it has actually done me good so far! I look at it a couple times a day just cuz i do that sort of thing. I have a few encouraging things up there as well. so it works out.

okay i was fatigued/ well really more sleepy really today. i have like sharp stabbing shooting pains through my head and neck but its nothing compared what its like usually. I was able to get a few things done, clean up a bunch and relax a bunch. I felt like i made some goals and plans for myself and accomplished things today.

so now i have a few hobbies possibly. so its good.