food allergy? and no period!

so i'm pretty sure i might have a food allergy. at first i was thinking not but today i got that flushed feeling in my face after eating at the bbq. i ate alot of new things than usual. i felt like my face was swelling and stuff but it wasnt and i was tired. and also the only thing that helped was cool rag on my face and i slept for like 3 - 4 hours in the air conditioned apartment. so i'm going back to the allergist to take the test.

another thing, i still dont have my period. i've been depressed today (probably from being tired) moody and i gained weight so i thought maybe the pregnancy tests were too early so i took another one and it was negative. i mean i would rather i be pregnant than it be something else cuz that would mean i was healthy in that area. it pisses me off that the doctor who took all those tests wont call me back and the staff in his office are incompetent. i think i might just go in and request copies of the records and take the tests to another gynocologist.

AT LEAST i'm happy

I cant sleep tonight because of all the things going through my head

anticipation of scrapbooking
maybing talking with my mom again
wanting to dance
wanting to work
wanting to be something more
the apointment tomorrow about my dog with the housing office...eek
the fact that i will probably miss the apointment because if i wake up still tired the rest of the day is shot for me.

i have to tell myself to at least take the summer OFF!!!!!!!!! doing NOTHING!!! i can't take that chance of pushing myself and then i just end up in the roller coaster again. But i dream of what i could do with the money.....basically all related to my health and enjoyment (cuz if i can enjoy somethings then that will improve my health).

Today i made an apointment with the allergist (again) but this time i asked for more than just the regular allergy test. I asked if they tested for food allergies and molds and stuff and that I wanted those as well. So i'm defintely having more confidence.

My tack board is now filled. I dont know if i can fill it any more than it is. The thing is I will notice things much better if they are up there rather than in a pile somewhere. it has actually done me good so far! I look at it a couple times a day just cuz i do that sort of thing. I have a few encouraging things up there as well. so it works out.

okay i was fatigued/ well really more sleepy really today. i have like sharp stabbing shooting pains through my head and neck but its nothing compared what its like usually. I was able to get a few things done, clean up a bunch and relax a bunch. I felt like i made some goals and plans for myself and accomplished things today.

so now i have a few hobbies possibly. so its good.