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i hate writing updates. i know i need to and this is the easiest way to do it for me. I've just been feeling crappy the last few days. with the chiropractor helping the inflammation its good. I'm going to go twice a week for now. i want to get better!! i want to dance again.

okay, well I've been happy, no depression. but if i think about another doctor telling me that I'm depressed i know i would cry because i try and believe the doctor and then i look back at all the things i love to do that i cant do any more then i cry and then the doctor thinks that's reason to believe I'm depressed! aah.

that hasn't happened for a while but never mind.

i went to the gynaecologist yesterday because my period hasn't come for like 40 days and last time it came for a week then it stopped for a week and came for another week. i thought maybe i was pregnant or something, i actually would like that. i mean i dont want to plan for it and it would be hard but I'm noticing myself smiling and talking about babies and stuff instead of being scared of the idea whereas before i would freak. so maybe its just my time to warm up to the idea right? but i had an ultrasound today to look at everything. the doc should get them by Monday.. eek. no sign of pregnancy.

today i felt like crap. sharp pains go through my head and neck. my legs feel heavy. i try and move and i feel more like crap. maybe its the heat. i really should limit my movement. I've been eating much more. and last night my stomach was hurting me and today.

theres more but i don't now what else to say. that's why i should be keeping more track of it.

sore throat. I'm tired alot. i slept like 6 hours i think last night but i was sooo tired today.