well my grandma had cancer that almost killed her then a year later i became disabled lost my job then had to drop school because of a serious illness. and having heard about all these disasters with katrina and the tsunami and such i am hypervigilant about these types of things. my main thing is "anything could happen at any time!!!" right now i'm shaking thinking about these things.
does anyone feel this way: i get anxious at night when i'm tired and worry but tonight i stopped to just feel my feelings and they werent worry at all but a feeling like i'm uncomfortable just having things be okay and not worrying about what bad thing is going to happen next... so i let myself be uncomfortable and all i wanted to do was cry. or be sad or whatever. (btw my illness was so in and out for over 9 months and i just recently got over it like a few weeks ago)
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1 year ago
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Dear AB,
Murphy's law, along with my injuries and psychological issues has made me an extremely cynical being.
Nothing surprises me these days and negative news seems so commonplace that I have sort of become impervious to it.
This "numbing" effect is not good but it remains a defense mechanism nonetheless.
Take care.
Phoenix
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