my leg hurts

so i've been feeling much better the last two days. i've managed to clean my living room and kitchen and fold all the clothes from like 6 loads of laundrey. But the heat was wiping me out today. and tonight i got depressed. i guess the pain makes me realize whats important because all i was focused on was how i want to be pretty and not all gross and stuff. I put on makeup and did my hair, changed my shirt all to go get groceries. lame i know. i went to 3 different stores (cuz thats what i do) and my right leg was cramping up so bad. it still hurts. i got depressed right after i realized that i had small groups tonight and it was just too much to figure out how to get my friend to give me a ride after i drop the car off at mikes work so he could get home without me. I guess i'm not ready for all that thinking and rushing to get stuff done and do things. I used to do it so well. I used to go to school full time, hold a part time job, volunteer in two ministries at church, and maintain a social life. where have those days gone. I got pretty sad tonight. But I bought myself yellow tulips which are making me quite happy. and they go well in my blue and white libing room. :-)