Last Tuesday was mike and my couples group. Well I was giving an update on my health with the ladies during prayer requests: I said i have been feeling a lot better on my antibiotics, happy, hopeful, thinking i might actually enjoy my wedding. I said i should know my dx next Friday. One lady mentioned "what if your doctor says you shouldn't leave the country?" We are going to Mazatlan Mexico for our honeymoon. I straight up said (although she was just making a mini joke) "I wouldn't go".
Tonight I was thinking about that, how sad that is, a honeymoon is soooo wonderful and one of those things (especially if you pay so much for it) that you just don't give up. I must be so devastated by my illness to think that I would rather shoot myself than go on a trip that would keep me sick. And thats sad.
well I've been feeling rather good comparatively. I can walk the dog, walk around campus, lift my arms, etc and not feel like i used to. I can think clearer. Its pretty nice.
but today i crashed slightly. I was in the library finding books for my ballet term paper and felt this rush of this drained feeling. I didn't go to Spanish class. Well, I can't feel bad. My teachers are all supportive, but I wouldn't blame them for giving me anything less than a C. At least I'll have a report from the doctor to give my school and that'll help with showing why i did bad this semester.
1 year ago
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