feeling good today suprise suprise

today i felt pretty good. first time in a long time that has happened, I ususally push through the day thinking about how it sucks to have to push through the whole day and not be able to function practically after work and thank God i live with my parents these days so I dont have as much as far as house work goes as i used to... yesterday i went back to work. it was raining and all my joints were hurting. I was feeling a little weak and my hips both felt like they were gonna fall out. But by the end of the day I was feeling much better and actually rejuvenated. Last night I felt well enough to shower (not that I dont shower) and feel happy with my night sleeping soundly. usually im having to pass out with pain meds, find something random to eat and use a heat back or ice on my back through the night depending on whats hurting.
in the middle of the night though i woke up so i went on teh computer. I leaned on my shoulders too much which caused me some pain. My sinuses were inflamed slightly so I took some ibiprofun.
When I dont get enough rest like 8 hours at least at night im usually wanting the rest in the car on the way to work or the hour before work i have to wait until i start. Im usually resting a lot during the day too as much as I can. Today was different.
Maybe its all the prednisone Im on. Maybe its my sinus surgery doing its job. Maybe its because it was a good weather day. Maybe its my antidepressants. we shall see. But more importantly: After a little while Im going to start a regimen of vitamins and such like I did at one point I think in the begining of 2008 to help combat pain and inflamation. it will be like a dubble wammy on all this crap.

Sinus Surgery

I had my sinus surgery yesterday. On a scale from 1-10 my chiari surgery pain level was at a 12. This surgery was at about a 6. Yeah. A walk in the park. I think the worst part of it is feeling really weird when the anesthesia isn't quite gone. My nose is still bleeding but I'm hoping this surgery helps my sinuses and subsequent migraines and shoulder tension as well.

I found out I'm allergic to Demerol. Before my surgery I was given a small dose through my IV. My arm hurt immediately and it also started to itch. They slowed down the IV and gave me a new bag of saline to go with it.

Ive been on my antidepressants for about 2 weeks now and they seem to be helping. This round has been triggered since my move at the end of November. In general it should not only help my depression but my pain levels.

some info

Proverbs 27:7
He who is full loathes honey, but to the hungry even what is bitter tastes sweet.

My sinus surgery is scheduled for February 17th. Its my first time being with Kaiser. So far its been nothing but helpful. I think my history with healthcare and self care has prepared me to be my own advocate when it comes to my health.

Multiple sinus infections. Chronic sinusitis and drainage. Nausia. Migraines. I can't wait for some relief.

When my sinuses are inflames my neck tenses and so do my shoulders.

Ive taken many days off work due to these infections I get quickly after a minor cold.

chiari

today i walked about 1/4 mile with a gallon of groceries in each hand. stopped many times but finally got home. headache rest weakness disoriented, ice pain medicine sleep. i managed to eat and put out some flowers that i got. its 4 hours later and im still slightly disoriented and weak. note to self: dont exhaust energy and strength on needless things. i could have gone to the grocery store with my mom later in the day.

other than today things are great. especially since now if i am in any pain i know where it comes from and how to handle it best. that eases most of my problems.

lungs

so its been a few months since my last post. thats probably a good sign. I am doing well, except i had to move and find a new job and my car broke down and my bike was stolen. But now im walking/busing it to work which is pretty much down the street and i dont have to pay gas or insurance or car maintnence and i love where i live and who i live with. anyways, ask far as health stuff goes, i got sick my second week on the job with bronchitis and a bad cold. took the meds and felt better. for the last few days my chest has felt really tight so i went to the doctor and had a breathing treatment. no asthma or pneumonia. and i got an inhaler.

my back and neck pain is on and off and my coworker is always wondering if i can "handle" the job because i sigh alot throughout the day and rest my back as much as possible. she doesnt understand obviously but im being patient. walking helps my back and so does ice and heat, rest etc. as well as being with friends. ive stopped PT again this time cuz i cant get there and I am broke and still owe them 65 dollars. sucks.

not sure what helped tonight, the 2 cheeseburgers, the double shot latte, or the 3 doses of albuteral in a 3 hour period. we shall see. Im considering trying the gluten free diet just to see what happens. But it's still in the air.

i have to just laugh

"i can cry about it or just laugh at those who cant scratch the middle of their back..." haha.

the pain sucks. hypermobility or eds3 sucks. my spine feels like a collapsing accordion. i have to just laugh at it though, cuz im gonna deal with it the rest of my life...

Drs....aye aye aye

I went to the doctor here at my school. He was an orthopedic surgeon. I went to get a simple PT referral so insurance can pay for it. He had an assistant and was moving my arms around and knees and thumbs etc to show him how I "move" and "sublux". Same thing happened at PT last Thursday. Hopefully this helps, PT. My mom knows a holistic healer type person who sounds interesting. I might try that too :)

shoulder impingement

ah yes my hypermobile shoulders have now gotten the best of me. two days ago my shoulders were starting to hurt. later my head hurt as i was driving to work. i thought, here comes my migraine (in my shoulders) i dont know what i was thinking. anyways i would get bursts of pain shooting around my shoulders and also in my head. it was weird. i took medicine, i also put ice on my back. the next day in ballet i asked my teacher about the pain, she said it probably was from tense muscles in my neck/shoulder area. i sat out half the session putting icy-hot on my shoulders. i missed classes that day so i could go get a massage. the pain was that bad. though the massage felt good the pain still lasted through the night. i tried licorice tea as well as ice and heat packs. this morning i went to school, i was in pain. i thought i would miss my midterm because the pain hurt i couldn't think straight. i went to the health center at school and they said i would have to come back tomorrow. I had my therapy session and was still in pain. I decided to go to urgent care. now i have nausea as well. the UC doctor sent me to the ER just in case... i dont really know why. While at the ER the doctor did "excessive testing" as he put it. I had x-rays, a ct-scan of my lungs, and four viles of blood drawn. all to find out that it was impingement.

anyways this is a secondary condition to shoulder instability. yikes. now i definitely need physical therapy. im on it!

nightmares

its funny how health conditions can produce psychological problems. if i didnt know better my nightmare would still be terrifying me now and probably for a few days. i dreamt i was in an old battered house in simi valley and i was getting some old jewelry. i saw a figure outside and i went to yell at it. the figure ran inside, it happened to be a girl. but a man ran inside as well. instead of running after the girl, now i was running from the man. freaky. anyways i woke up and i was feeling hot. my hands and feet hurt. i feel woozy. i know my salt level is low. i eat some olives and drink some water. i get my blood circulating by doing a few stretches and i rub my hands and feet with some cream or lotion. i set the temperature in the house down a few notches. when i lay back down i will raise my feet up a little so that the blood will get to my brain better. now i have sweet dreams.


anyways, my body has been feeling good. the only thing bothering me this week is my back and shoulders being so sore that i end up getting migraines. and ive been lacking quality sleep. im moving though soon to my own room so i can have some solace. i need to add more to that solace and get my finances straightened out and have a financial plan so that i never have to freak out about rent or bills. ie: maybe i have to get a new job cuz my job isnt giving me enough hours. you do what you have to do.

body pain

this morning i wake feeling sad/dull. then i survey my body and notice my whole body hurts, pins and needles. my head hurts too. its mild but enough to ruin the happy me. its time to take this seriously. ive been avoiding doing anything really health related since the beginning of the year for a couple of reasons. ive been through some drastic life changes, and because i was overjoyed with the ability to go to school, work, and have a social life. its changing for me again, i see.

to be honest

i feel like im getting worse. my eyes have been hurting for 3-4 weeks now, ive tried lots of things to help it and it seems like its only improving slightly. now tonight my upper spine feels sensitive. i'm trying to figure out the cause, if its me or what. i dont know. im going to keep track of my symptoms daily for now on.

stress and pain

I'm really stressed out. I have a job and going to school full time. I just moved into the dorms. I've been lifting too much stuff walking too hard and fast and going going all day long. I've had a head cold the last week. And my head and shoulders have been hurting a lot llately. I don't know what to do because I need to be a full time student to live here and I do not want to move again. I also need to get more hours at work. When I'm up and about it doesn't hurt as bad. I'm going to try my dance class tomorrow I'm just worried it will be too much for my back. At least the teacher was my teacher before and when I got sick so she's understanding. I also need to start physical therapy again. And on top of all that I need to pay my way past due bills and clean up some odds and ends at the old place. I'm just hoping that when my stress lessens then my body will feel better. I worry that I'm either doing too much or I'm getting worse. Both of those are bad cuz I'm on my own now and I have to do all that. I can't afford not to. I also can't afford to get worse. I drove a half hour to work every day and it's bad posture the whole time. At least I'm away from people stressors. Maybe I'll start combating one stressor at a time and see if that helps.

doing good

a long awaited update yes it is.

im doing good. I am getting pressure headaches and migraines but they are manageable. I can dance and work and go to school and clean dishes and cook and do laundry. but I need to pace myself. i'm sleeping well and refreshed. i hiked like a mile and a half last week.

think i should update? :-)

so yeah im not pregnant. it turns out my monthly was coming and i ran out of my antidepressants so i had a withrdawl. duh! anyways, i worked 6 1/2 hours and marie callenders today and will probably tomorrow. yay! thats the best! woo hoo.

lethargic update

I havent updated in a long time because Ive been doing really well. The last 2 weeks i had alot of headaches because of stress, but they are not debilitating which is key. Thats gone but now its replaced with mild/moderate fatigue in the afternoons. Now the last few days Ive been depressed too. Last night I got a migraine. so im hoping I'm pregnant. which is what I hoped before my surgery too because that means my body is normal and I only have to deal with this craziness for a little while. If Im not pregnant then I'm so frustrated because my antidepressants arent working and I have to find the source of my problems. Ugh!

Other than that Ive been doing pretty great. Again not 100% but there are so many instances where I remember the same situation being in agony like climbing stairs.

scar 43 days post op

i'm kinda concerned about my scar. I keep picking at it near the top but I pick it so much that clear ooze comes out. So I need to keep a hands off policy. That area has always been a little red and looked different than the rest of the scar anyways.

migraine...went away :-)

Yesterday I did so much. Probably too much. I woke up early to take M to work, went to the bank, stopped to get a burrito, took my car to the shop, took two buses to school, walked a block to my class, walked two flights of stairs to my second class, ate the rest of my food, walked a block to the bus, took two buses to get my car and finally got to M a 5pm. And i only started to feel body aches at the end.

Today I stayed home but mostly felt good. I took my brother and sister to the store and to KFC but my head started hurting. I got home and had to sleep on ice, i had a migraine. I got up a few hours later and ate a little food. My migraine is still there but I still feel pretty good.

This is amazing. I can totally handle this. Every time I get a headache I fear a CSF leak or another complication, but I do better every time. I feel normal. Also the last few nights I have wanted to sleep around 9:30 10pm but M wants to stay up, and we are trying to find a place to live and I feel its on my shoulders even when he says he will do it, he doesn't. So a little stress and inadequate sleep, plus having surgery a little over a month ago...equals a migraine i suppose.

yay

feeling better every day! :-)
good posture feels better than bad posture. I'm happy and energetic. I can last 4 hours now and rest a bit to go on a little more.

update physical therapy

I forgot to mention in my pros and cons post that I used to gag alot and feel like i was going to throw up. not anymore :-)

physical therapy is going well. About 4 more weeks. The therapist said in a few weeks I can go swimming at the Y again. yay!

I saw the doctor at school yesterday. I told him about my hypermobility and he took me seriously! He was actually shocked that the doctors didn't pick up on my chiari right away. Well he used to be an orthopedic surgeon. He said this is something I have to live with and that surgery and physical therapy doesn't really help. But he will add the physical therapy to my prescription for my joints. He said I wasnt too bad. My elbows wrists and fingers along with my shoulders are the bad areas. But my knees and ankles are pretty good. But I do have flat feet. I asked him what to do about it and he said that he has flat feet too and you have to learn tricks to walk properly and avoid the pain. Pretty much what I am doing already. So, yay.

I guess that was a confirmation of diagnosis right?

I took my tramadol the other night and had a rebound yesterday. I was in alot of pain. I felt nauseous all day and sick. So no more tramadol.

sleeping well

So I havent had that "disappointed" feeling at night for a while now. Ive been sleeping well. Waking up refreshed. My joint pain is pretty bad but today I bought two ankle supports and it works so well. my knees dont hurt bad like before when i dont have them on. I can walk longer with them on. I will get wrist supports soon because i notice how painful they are. Hopefully I can fully function with these things and I can exercise to a point where my muscles hold up my joints. I have more motivation to exercise now. And my biggest goal is to dance and I think with all my limitations I will be a very graceful dancer out of necessity.

Ive been noticing more and more how I put pressure on my joints on a day to day basis. Like holding up a book or my laptop or going up stairs or even resting or driving a car. So I'm trying to relieve the pressure as best as I can.

I plan to get massages at my school. They are cheap. I want to get them maybe once a week now that Im not going to therapy. :-) And hopefully that will help with the muscle tension because I know my muscles work overtime holding up my joints.

As long as I can manage my pain and I can do basic things and I can exercise I know that I will have a happy and fulfilling life. And that is honest to God my main prayer. Out of the depths of my soul I cry for this. To be happy and fulfilled. And the tug at my heart says I don't deserve it but I know thats the addicted personality that stems from my chaotic family.

I'm taking Abnormal Psychology this semester and I am feeling so normal. Contrary to what I've always believed about myself deep down. My mom has a tendency to look for the unnormal in others.She did it to me and to my cousin, and now to my little sister. People may have a tendency to one kind of problem but it doesn't mean they have that problem. They should call it Mental Health more often than Mental Illness because everyone needs to be aware of their health. Just like I can have a tendency towards Diabetes because my aunt and my grandma both have it but it doesn't mean that I suffer with it.