Strange Feelings

Last night I felt the strangest thing. Like my right foot was swelling but it wasn't swelling.
I went to sleep but it was bothering me and my calf too.
So I got ice and put it on it. I laid it next to my foot during the night and slept.

Today I ate at 8-8:30. I was hungry in my class around 11:30. I snacked on my mix because I was really hungry. and 2:30 hit and I was gonna die. So the food cart was closing and I had to go to McDonald's to eat. On my way to the car my arm feels like its radiating heat. My right arm. I ate and I feel like I'm not in control of my body. I want to cool off my arm. I felt all clumsy walking to the car and eating too. Even my writing is hard like I can't but I want to write this down.

I wonder, when I"m starting to feel better, whether it really is stress but then when its this bad I know that its not. Something else is doing this.

on some nights i have to take advil and cover my legs more cuz my hips and down ache like the bones are aching.

I ate cearal and a banana this morning and my legs ache like they do, now.

I want more food.

What's really going on...

So I think that whats really going on is: I have allergies which is an immune problem making me more suseptable to being sick and being sick makes my allergies worse. and I get migranes maybe once a week. I really think that I have a virus. I have all the symptoms for (non fatal don't worry) viral meningitis but its just taking a while for me to get over it. yesterday was the first day I felt some type of pleasure. the sun. today i feel wiped out. my muscles are weak but i know i'm getting better. i laughed today with my classmates. i havent done that for a while. yes stress could be a factor but i dont think its fair to say that is the cause. so i have a good doctor now who took some more blood tests and got my test results from the er doctor. i'll see him back at the end of the month. he reccomended that i get immuno supressant therapy (ie: allergy shots) since allegra does nothing for me. the lights hurt my eyes. loud sound makes me nautious well actually sound from tv or radio if its at normal level makes me nautious. and air conditioning smell gives me a headache.
sianara,
courtney

Today

Today I felt pleasure and joy. I felt the sun on my face and my dead hurts less. I'm in class and all I want to do is go in the sun again. The opportunity to not be in agony pain or something. I'm dizzy and nautious. This room makes my head hurt and the lights in the hall. the smell of my room aat home and the air in Mike's car. I got a massage today which relieved some tension. I felt bad because it cost $50 bucks of which I don't have. I slept outside for 5 minutes before slass because the sun was nice. The breeze was blosing but my stomache still hurt. The massage was nice. I need some money- thats whats going on in my head - to get a massage and feel good. Got to go.